I must have “Idiot” stamped on my head and heart

I should know better….

Really I should….

Giving people 2nd (or more) chances just gives them another chance to hurt me.

The thing that really sucks about putting myself out on the line —

is that when they hurt me again… it’s all the worse… because I *GAVE* them the chance to do it.

Fuck…Fuck… FUCK!!!!!

~ by cinnkitty on Sunday, January 6, 2008.

23 Responses to “I must have “Idiot” stamped on my head and heart”

  1. I’m sorry :-(
    That’s a bad feeling.

    ***yeppers…. thanks for the sympathy. I gather you’ve had the same?

  2. My heart goes out to you.

    ***thanks. I’ll live. Always do. Besides.. kitties always land on their feet. :)

  3. You know, there’s a Simpsons or Futurama quote for almost every occasion? In this case…

    “Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twenty or more times, shame on me”- Amy Wong.

    ***yeah… that’s about right. But you know what?? At least I was strong enough, brave enough to try…. that’s what I’m taking from this.

  4. Me sorry. I do the same thing all the time. Dunno why.

    **because we are optimists who want to give folks the benefit of the doubt? ;)

  5. Awww Sweetie…the problem with being a nice person is that people can hurt you so easily. We should all just be bitches and live in solitude with a dozen cats.

    ***well… I can work on the dozen cat part but I think Squeaker would have a fit! ha.ha… As for being a bitch.. well.. I certainly have my moments!

  6. I’m sorry to hear this, Kitty Cat. Truly sorry.

    ****What? No “I told you so” from you Mars? Wow.. you really are growing up! :P

  7. Oh honey. I’m sorry.

    ***Thanks…. I’m okay. Moving forward… but lesson learned. That’s good, right?

  8. I am sorry sweetie – that’s a sucky thing to have happen to you – can I do anything?

    ***Chocolate.. I could use lots and lots of chocolate. :)

  9. Wait….I didn’t know you were at my New Year’s Eve party.

    Sorry to hear that it happened to you. That’s why I keep the Paradoxical Tem Commandments in the front of my planner. It sucks how much I have the re-read it.

    ***Hmmm…I don’t think I was, but you never know. Lessons learned. Moving on. Chapter of my life *DEFINITELY* closed….

  10. Trixie wrote this down for me, but I made her take it home to keep it herself. “Do not look back with regret, but forward with hope.” I’ve mentally added that Sam Kineson line to the end of that hope part . . . ; )

    Their karma, not yours Kitty. Chin up, boobs out, onward and conquer.

    ***Boobs are out!! I even got my new green thermal shirt with a big pink peace symbol between two pink wings, in the mail today. Boobs are on proud display! Well.. that and a new bra to help me display them… all in all.. it’s working out quite well. ha…ha…

  11. What the hell? You okay? I can be there with a nail studded stick in about 6 hours…..

    ***Yeah.. I’m okay. I was just doing my best to give another chance and it exploded right in my face. Oh well… at least I still have my eyebrows, right? Thanks Jules. Love you too! nail studded stick and all. :)

  12. Karma, you will receive good tidings back in time. Be patient.

    On the other hand, if your patience has run out, then kill the son-of-a-bitch. You have my permission!

    ***nah… as I’ve said before, vertical stripes aren’t really my look. But thanks! ;)

  13. I’m so sorry to read this. I do the same thing on what seems like a weekly basis.

    ***Wow…. a weekly basis?? How do you handle that much hurt?? Seriously! Maybe we should form a support group – “Over-trusters anonymous” ;)

  14. Do you need me to send you that poem about men being fuckers? I’ll do it.

    ***Nah.. I’ve still got it, but thanks! ha..ha.ha…

  15. I am sorry to hear this…

    But I have to say, you should be proud that you DID TRY.

    I am 100% convinced that it is far better to try and fail, then never to have tried.

    All of my greatest regrets have occurred because I failed to try…

    ****Coming from you ST, that means a lot. And I’m serious about that. :) Thanks, it means a lot. I really am doing my best to love w/o fear, even when it winds up hurting me.

  16. Don’t beat yourself up. It’s better to have given him the chance and now know for sure he’s an ass, than be wondering “what if”, don’t you think?

    ***Absolutely!! And I’m okay with the hurt right now because I did try.

  17. Kitty–Never be sorry for risking….just that we are not close enough to go have drinks. WAIT….we are! We should plan that.~~Dee

    ***Absolutely!! I would LOVE that!! Then I can lord it over Mars that I’ve actually met YOU in PERSON….hee..hee..hee…. :)

  18. I try to stay clear of result expectation, and take a risk if the spirit moves. If it ain’t chemical, it’s spiritual. People are so weird – they’re gonna do what they gotta do no matter what we do. I say get in, get it while it’s good and get out fast if it gets too funky. Life is too short to drink weak coffee, ya know??

  19. PS – BTW- read transformedia @ wordpress….let me know what you think.

  20. My love…..My princess….my kitty…..I have a hug with your name on it, a box of chocolate, and a rose or two. Wanna set up a phone date with me? I am hot and I talk dirty.

    ***Sweet! I loves me some dirty talk.. only problem.. you and I both know that you have no interest in girls… and well…that’s a problem. hee..hee..hee..

  21. Hey, I want in on the phone date. I might be able to make you smile too, though I’m not as good as dirty talking as Mistress M is.


    ***I KNEW!! I *AM* putting out a “vibe” or something… cause all the girls want to talk dirty to me but none of the guys! ha..ha.ha…

  22. i know you’ve told yourself this a million times…but live and learn—never again!! no more chances. Its ok, it happened. all of us here have done it and been burned. but hey, that’s life…its ok, move on. YOu’re only human and want the best ….don’t fret, its another day.

    ***Yep..yep..and I’m okay. Really I am. It’s been easier (this time) to realize that I’m okay…it’s okay. And, I’m actually finding relief that it’s over and I don’t have the “drama” anymore. Time to move forward! :)

  23. Sorry for the late comment, been kinda out of commission. Anyway – wanted to send you some cyber-chocolate and super big hugs (just until I see ya in person). His loss….seriously, his loss!! You’re one super-cool kitty!

    HUGS!
    Bianca

    ***Thanks B — I’ve missed you! I appreciate the virtual hugs and cyber chocolate is MUCH better for my diet.. hee..hee..hee… Yeah.. his loss.. definitely…. and someone (or someones’) will benefit from that. Who wants to volunteer? ;)

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