I dream of ….. pee?????

Uhhh…seriously… I do!

I’ll be dreaming that I’m going to or have to go pee.

Typically, that heralds an abrupt wake up, upon which I stumble in the dark to the bathroom.

Is it like some kind of internal “alarm system”?

Ah-OOGA!

Ah-OOGA!

“Warning….Warning….bladder is full.. SEND THE *PEE* DREAM STAT!”

Granted, it’s not unusual for me to be up 2,3 maybe even 4 times a night to go pee. (yeah, really!)

I think I only have the “pee dream” on nights that I’m SO wiped out that I’m not making my typical nocturnal trips to the potty.

Other people have this too, right?

Right??

RIGHT???

Oh geez.. please tell me it’s not just me!

Well - on the upside — at least I’m not as bad as one particular man from my past.

He was having the “pee dream”…only…he didn’t wake up!

Yeah!

A 45 year old man wet the bed.

I would have laughed if I hadn’t been sleeping NEXT TO HIM at the time.

Ewwwwww….!!!  :)

*cough* *cough* tiger!

Eddie Izzard was a RIOT!

I laughed so hard I actually *hurt* by the end of the night!!!!!

One minor hiccup — I left my house and forgot the tickets!

Yep… that right.. me.. Ms. “I never forget anything” got 10 miles from home and suddenly realized that the tickets were sitting on my desk at home.

I blame Ranger  *giggle* because he had asked me what time the show was the night before.  Sooooo…I had taken the tickets out of my computer case (where they have resided since MARCH) to look up the time.   They never made it back into my case.   Then, before I left for Rangers house, he called to remind me to bring an “overnight bag” since I was spending the night.  “ummm. yeah, babe.. I got that.. don’t worry.. I don’t forget things!”

Opps!  ha..ha.ha… had to eat those words just a little bit later, didn’t I?  :)

I get to his house and he shows me his new car!

Yeah… he called me Monday to inform me that he was driving his new Toyota Corolla home.  WHAT??  Wow.. I knew he had been talking about getting a new car (reference another post on that one) but it was so.. so.. SUDDEN!

He is now the proud owner of a 2007 (I think) Toyota Corolla!

Cute!

We chat and cuddle a little bit and then head over to Longhorn to meet Haywood and his “date”.

After arriving early, we both agree that we are starving!!  So we sit at the bar and share of plate of Wild West Shrimp. He has a beer and I have a Mojito… oooo.. I loves me a Mojito!  ;)

Haywood arrives with his “date” — who actually turns out to be an old friend of his who is passing through town on her way to a cousin’s wedding.  She’s from Texas, a 6th grade school teacher and she’s a sweetie.  We got along spendidly.

Oh… and she was wearing almost the EXACT SAME dress that I had thought about wearing that night.  The only difference was hers had blue sparkles and mine was silver.  I teased her about that and we had a good laugh over the “near fashion mishap!”

Me??  I was wearing a white mini-skirt with a blue criss-cross blouse that showed LOTS of cleavage (Ranger loves that) AND… my Marc Jacob shoes!

Trust me.. the shoes MADE the whole outfit!  hee…hee……  A girl ALWAYS feels sexy when wearing $300 shoes!

We have a lovely dinner and with some time to kill, head over to wander around Circuit City where Ranger, Haywood and Teach proceed to impress me with their “Wii” bowling skills… well…actually only Teach impressed me.  James and Ranger sucked!  *snort!*

Then - it was off to the Cobb Energy Performing Arts Center for the show of my lifetime!!!

As Ranger and I were walking into the building (hand and hand I might add.. awww..) I saw a cluster of girls to my right. One of the young women looked me up and down and then said to her friends  “Shoes!“, in an excited whisper, causing the other 3 ladies to turn and stare.  As we walked by, I heard the same woman say “those are AWESOME!” so of course I HAD to stop and talk to her about the shoes.  hee..hee…

God I LOVE those shoes!!!
Every woman should have at least one pair of horribly expensive shoes, don’t you think!  :)

Haywood, Teach and I had a great time at the show.
Sadly, it was *not* Rangers cup of tea.
He actually wound up dozing through a large portion of the show — amazing considering the place was packed and FILLED with laughter!
I felt really bad for him… I had wanted to show him some of Eddie’s standup, so he would understand the background and references but he insisted on going in “cold” and that backfired horribly for him.

I give Ranger credit though… he didn’t complain or make a fuss or do anything to overtly ruin MY fun for the night.  He was very stoic about it all, and there *were* some parts that he laughed at (mostly references to monkeys and guns..ha..ha..).

The rest of the evening is for “behind closed doors”  aka — not for public consumption. .hee…hee… but suffice it to say — I probably woke up Rangers brother at one point.  HA!  :P

Morning — this morning that is — dawned cloudy and dull and I was whole heartedly enjoying my “sleep in” time at his house.

He made coffee AND fixed me breakfast.. yummy, yummy!
And we sat outside on the deck, chatting and sipping hot java… ahhhh.. bliss!
I wasn’t due into the office until 1pm because I had taken a 1/2 day off… I’m tricky that way!

BUT — that was sadly NOT to be.

I got a phone call from the office at 9:45 and they were in a PANIC!
The main server was not powering up…. and w/o the main server our company was a sinking ship in a hard storm.

sigh….

After a few minutes of trouble shooting, I realized that I was going to have to leave this domestic bliss scenario and RUSH to the office to fix the server.

Yeah…. I hadn’t showered yet…I had no make up on…my hair was mussed…I was a mess!

All the same — I threw my things together and was out the door like a flash… leaving a slightly flustered and shocked Ranger behind.

You see— the minute I realized I was going to have to drive like a bat out of hell to my office — my morning was RUINED!!!

And…my mind was already in “tech mode” - meaning I was already diagnosing the problem in my head and going through the step by step process I would need to cover to get the issue solved and have our company back up and running.

This puts me in a very “focused and intense” mood… Ranger interpretted it as “MAD AS HELL” as I later learned…

Opps!  No sweetie….that wasn’t it…sorry!

So, my lovely morning was SHOT to HELL and I won’t be seeing Ranger until next Thursday, because he is no longer on vacation as of today and goes back to work for his 6 day rotation!

Not exactly the way I wanted to spend our last few moments together…sigh….

Sometimes…it really SUX to be the “Office Goddess”  :)

Cheers,

kitty

p.s. — yes, I got the server problem solved, but it’s “jimmy rigged” right now. I’m going to have to work this weekend to replace things and get it all back up to 100% capability!  how fun…not!

Tonight! Tonight! Tonight!

I bought the tickets back in March and, quite frankly, I had my doubts as to whether or not the relationship would last long enough to make it to the show.

But, here it is.. .June 25th…and I’m heading up to the Cobb Energy Performing Arts Center tonight to see Eddie Izzard’s new stand-up routine “Stripped” with Ranger and company.

Now, here’s the deal —

Last night I asked Ranger “what the plan was”… I mean, we both knew I was taking a 1/2 day off from work and would meeting up with him this afternoon at his place.

But we hadn’t discussed our dinner plans or how/when we were hooking up with his brother and date.

So…he called “Haywood” (code name for his brother) and then called me back and told me — “Here’s the plan.   We are going to meet Haywood and his date at Longhorn at 5:30 for dinner and then it’s off to the show.”

And just like that I was floored!!!!

I mean, he had just made plans w/o asking me for input, w/o asking me for my opinion, w/o asking me anything!!!!  He just… he just… MADE A DECISION FOR ME!

I was flabbergasted.
I was stunned.
I was angry.
I was…..slightly pleased.

huh???

Confused yet?
Me too… let me explain….

I’m a control freak.
(yeah, come on, no shocker there!)

I’m 95.9% of the time the person who makes ALL the plans.
(again..no shocker..I’m very organized, it’s what I do)

And Ranger had just made an executive decision FOR ME.
(holy rusted metal Batman.. what the hell???)

But….once I gave myself a minute to think about it, I realized that this was OKAY.

Why?

Well, because:
#1.)  He already knew that I liked Longhorn, so it was a safe choice (he also asked Haywood if he and his date were okay with this choice)
#2.) He knows the area better than I do and this Longhorn is w/i walking distance of the Cobb, so if dinner runs long, we are right there!
#3.)  Both he and Haywood know where this Longhorn is, so that makes meeting up there easy
#4.)  I did not mention to Ranger that I had an “idea” on where to dine — hence, it’s not fair to be upset at him because he didn’t know!
#5.) He was PROACTIVE about making plans, based on how well he already knows me.

I had to take a few minutes to calm down, let go of my control issues and realize that what he did was OK.  Heck, it was more than okay, it was something that I’ve always “claimed” I wanted a man to do and yet always fought them over because *I* couldn’t let go of my control issues.

WOW…..right??

So there you have it… this little Kitteh is trying to grow up and become more of an adult than she ever has before.

It’s a scary thing………letting go of emotional baggage/issues that I’ve lived with all my life.
It’s a very scary thing.

Tonight should be amazing!

Keep your fingers crossed for me that I can keep the emotional growth going in the right direction.

Meow!!!

Step into my parlor said the spider to the fly

I’m drowning.

I’m scared.

I fight back the tears and wonder why fight them at all.

I’m sad.

I’m lonely.

I’m confused.

I don’t know what to do.

I feel adrift in life right now.

Purpose has fled me.

I’ve spent so much time being strong for others and now my strength has fled me.

I know it will pass.

But for now.. it is a bleak sea of despair stretched before me and I’m frightened.

Make it go away.

Please.

Someone?

Wake me up before you go…go…

Ugh… I’m back from vacation… sigh…

Yeah, yeah, I had a great time but now —- now — I’m back at work and I just want to go back on vacation. :)

I have a GREAT breakdown of the whole vacation time coming for you guys, but right now I’m digging myself out from under a PILE of paperwork that was waiting for me. Eeek!

So, I’ll give you a couple of pics to tide you over, instead.

For my “Fans of Ranger” girl club..(yes, Pug Mom, he *is* beefy and yes.. you would LOVE to see him nekkid in a calendar. hee..hee… he wouldn’t disappoint you… meow!)

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For some reason, he decided he wanted a picture of me blow drying my hair… not sure why but I thought is was sweet and cute of him!

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We stopped at Fort Benning in Columbus, GA on the way back from Florida and I stood in awe of the “Ranger Memorial” that stands there.

I admit, I got a little teary at the whole thing. All those lives that have been lost, protecting the rest of us! It makes me sad and yet happy, weird huh?

Ranger’s brother said the most amazing thing Friday night (he’s still active Army and yes, he is a Ranger as well). He said to this young couple at the Braves game “If you aren’t here and having a good time then I’m not doing my job.” That really is an amazing outlook, don’t you think??

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And last but not least.. we *did* go to the Braves game (and took his older brother!). Yeesh…the Braves lost 11-2 to the Seattle Mariners. It was pathetic! They lost to, like, the WORST team in the league. Peh!

But the view was great! :)

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More to come soon my little kitties.. and YES, I know I have A LOT of catching up to do on your blogs as well. :)